"Knock
knock." The third doctor of the day tapped on the door as he pulled it
open. "Hi, I’m Dr. Martinez." He smiled, "This must be
Kyle."
"Yeah."
JC slid off the table and held Kyle against him. "I’m JC, his
father."
"Nice
to meet you." Dr. Martinez shook his hand. "You’ve already been
checked in I just need you to sign another couple forms, but you can do that
upstairs."
"Okay."
JC nodded.
"Did
you want to carry him upstairs or would you like a wheelchair?"
"No,
I can carry him." JC followed him out to the hall. "Is that
okay?"
"That’s
fine." Dr. Martinez nodded and led the way to the elevators.
JC
yawned and pushed the IV pole beside him as they followed the doctor. Kyle
cried softly into JC’s shoulder when he saw the doctor standing so close. For a
second JC wondered what the other guys were up to, but with Kyle in his arms he
couldn’t check his watch and had no idea what time it was. It felt like they
had been there for days, though he was sure it was only a few hours.
They
rode to the 5th floor in silence then walked to the end of the hall
to room 579. It was a private room with a single bed in the center of the far
wall and a TV mounted on the other. "There’s a little hospital gown there
if he wants to wear it, but you can just leave him in his diaper if you
want." Dr. Martinez nodded at the bed.
"Okay."
JC mumbled as he tried to lay Kyle on the bed.
"No
daddy up." Kyle’s little legs curled up and tried to wrap around JC’s
middle as his crying intensified.
"Hey
Kyle you need to lay down buddy, take a nap."
"No
nap. Go bye." He insisted as he cried even harder.
"He’s
had a rough morning." JC looked apologetically at the doctor.
"So
I see." He smiled, "I’m going to give him a sedative to help calm him
down. After the spinal he needs to lay as flat and as still as he can for a few
hours, which is hard for a little one like Kyle." Dr. Martinez smiled.
"He probably has a pretty intense spinal headache right about now too,
sleeping through it will make it a lot easier for him."
JC
sighed as Kyle locked his arms around his neck and held on tight,
"Okay."
"I’ll
be right back." The doctor nodded quickly then left the room.
"Come
on Kyle, you need to lay in the bed."
"No.
We go bye now." Kyle said again as he choked out another sob.
"We
can’t go bye bye right now, we need to make sure you’re okay."
"I
okay, go bye."
"No,
you’re not okay. We need to – "
"Yes!
I go now."
"No
buddy, the doctor needs to make sure you’re well enough to go home."
"Jussin?"
He choked out through tears.
"Justin’s
on the bus."
"On
the bus?"
"Yeah,
with the other guys. They’re on the big bus."
"And
me?" He took a deep shaky breath as tears ran down his face.
"No
you need to stay here." JC explained as the doctor came back into the room
with an ampoule of medication. Before JC could look away he whipped out a
hypodermic needle and filled the syringe. "Shit." JC grumbled under
his breath as he looked down quickly and took a couple deep breaths while
trying to keep a hold of Kyle.
"This
will help him calm down so he can go to sleep." Dr. Martinez explained as
he injected it into Kyle’s IV. He made small talk as he checked Kyle’s
temperature and blood pressure, "We’re still waiting on those lab results,
so as soon as they’re called in I’ll come in here and go over them with you,
okay?"
"Yeah."
JC nodded as Kyle’s grip loosened on his shirt. A nurse stepped in and
introduced herself as Trudy then got JC and Kyle acquainted with the room by
showing them how to call a nurse, how the TV worked and how to work the
adjustable bed. JC thanked her and the doctor as they left him alone with Kyle
who was sleeping soundly by then.His temperature was still hovering at 103 and
JC was more worried than ever now that he’d had time to actually think about
what was happening.
JC’s
stomach growled loudly reminding him that he hadn't eaten all day, but nothing
sounded good. He instinctively checked his watch and saw that it was just
barely one. The rest of the guys would be in Cleveland already, probably
checked into the hotel and in the middle of a catered lunch.
JC
reached for the phone beside Kyle's bed and read the directions printed on the
front. He entered Chris' cell phone number, then his calling card number and
waited for Chris to pick up.
"H'lo?"
Chris mumbled as his usual response.
"Hey."
JC said softly.
That
was all he had to say, "Jace, what's up? What's going on?"
"We're
still at the hospital. They uh… they think he might have meningitis so they
just did a spinal tap."
"Oh
shit…" Chris said under his breath. "Is he okay?"
"He's
asleep. They gave him some stuff to calm him down because he was so worked up
after the spinal, you know?" JC pinched the bridge of his nose and rested
his elbows on the edge of the bed. "His fever went up to 106 while he was
in the tub to bring it down. I swear I've never felt this shitty."
"Are
you okay?"
"Yeah."
JC whispered.
"How'd
you handle all the needles?"
"I
almost passed out when they gave him the IV." JC laughed nervously.
"But I'm still standing."
"What
about the spinal?"
"Ugh,
you don’t even want to know." JC smiled and shook his head.
"When
will you know what’s going on?"
"Pretty
soon."
"What'll
they do?" Chris shifted the phone to his other ear.
"Well
he's on some serious antibiotics right now, so if it's bacterial meningitis
they'll keep him on that. If it's viral then they'll take him off that and just
use pain killers if he needs it. If it’s not even meningitis then they’re gonna
have to do some more tests."
"What
about after? I mean, is this permanent or what?"
"It
could be anything. I mean… fuck Chris." JC whispered as his voice cracked,
"This shit can be fatal."
"Dammit."
Chris said under his breath. "Hang on Jace." He took the phone from
his mouth and recounted to the other guys what JC had said.
"Then
we cancel the show tonight." Lance said without thinking twice.
"Call
Johnny." Chris nodded at Lance who was already reaching for his phone.
"Hey Jace? You sure you're okay? Because I can be there in like, twenty if
you want."
"You
didn't leave?" JC asked, completely surprised.
"Hell
no we didn't leave." Chris shook his head. "This is more
important."
"Yeah
but you guys, we’ve got stuff to do tonight in Cleveland." JC argued, though
secretly glad to have his friends nearby.
"Not
any more." Chris shook his head. "If this turned out to be nothing we
could have flown in time, but not now. We’re here for you."
"Thanks."
JC took a shaky breath and reached out to rub Kyle’s little arm.
"Do
you want someone to come down there?"
"No."
JC shook his head. "There’s nothing to do… I mean, I’m just waiting."
"Because
we can come wait with you."
"No,
you guys are probably already knee deep in shit from Sean and Johnny for
skipping out on Cleveland."
"They
know what’s going on." Chris shook his head.
"We
have a show tonight and I don’t know if I can make it."
"It’s
been cancelled."
"Chris…"
JC pressed his eyes shut, "You can’t just cancel a show."
"Yeah,
because it’d be so much easier playing without you." Chris’ biting
sarcasm came through and comforted JC. "I can’t sing your
parts."
"Joey
could." JC tried to argue.
"It’s
too late. The show’s been postponed."
"Till
when?"
"Till
whenever Kyle gets better." Chris said softly. JC took another deep breath
and tried to clear his head. "You okay man?" Chris asked.
"Yeah."
JC whispered. "Yeah, I’m okay. I’ll call you later okay? As soon as I find
out what’s going on."
"Okay."
Chris nodded. "We’re uh… we’re praying for you guys." Chris sounded
almost uncomfortable mentioning prayer, but he knew JC would appreciate it.
Tears
rose again in JC’s eyes as he took another deep breath and nodded though Chris
couldn’t see him, "Thanks."
"I’ll
talk to you later."
"Yeah."
JC forced a small smile, "Bye."
"Bye."
Chris clicked the phone off to relay the information to the others.
JC
hung up the phone and rested his chin in his hand as he held Kyle’s tiny hand
in his own and stroked the back of his hand with his thumb. Kyle squirmed in
his sleep and mumbled something incoherent then sighed and went still again.
"Hey little guy… I’m sorry about this." JC kissed Kyle’s hand and
fought back tears that he’d been holding back all day. He scooted his chair
closer and laid his head down on his arm by Kyle’s waist, "You’ve gotta be
okay Kyle. I know being on the road and stuff sucks, but it’ll… I’ll get
better."
The
tiny hand still felt warm in his as he let his eyes close to rest his tired
eyes. He must have dozed off because the slight movement of Kyle’s hand a short
while later startled him. He checked the clock above Kyle’s head to see that he
had missed more than a half hour.
JC
yawned and ran his hands over his hair; the day had been so completely
emotionally draining, he wasn’t sure he’d have what it took to make it through
the rest of the day. He stood up to stretch his back and to wake up his legs
after sitting for so long. Kyle stirred slightly in his sleep and gave a tiny
frown before letting his face relax. "Man kiddo, let’s just go home. Let’s
just pack up and get the hell outta here huh? What do you think?" JC
reached across the little bed and pulled the thin knit blanket up over Kyle’s
legs then sighed. "I wish we could." JC whispered.
His
nervous stomach flip flopped again as he heard someone walk by the room. It had
been more than an hour since Kyle was admitted and he was just waiting for the
doctor to come back with the results of the spinal tap. Until he knew exactly
what was wrong with Kyle, he wouldn’t be able to calm down. Even with the
results, he wasn’t sure he’d ever be the same again. "We’re gonna rock
this town, rock it inside out. We’re gonna rock this town, make em scream and
shout…" JC sang softly as he tapped Kyle’s hand to the beat. He thought
back to what Joey said about the last song. How "Bye bye bye" was the
last song he’d sang as a single and swingin’ guy… somewhere in the back of his
mind he thought about that moment and wondered if this might be the last song
he’d get to sing to his son. He snapped his mouth shut and took a deep breath and
shook his head to chase the thought from his mind. Kyle was going to be fine.
All he had to do was convince himself and keep the dark images from his mind.
"JC?"
He heard a female ask softly from the doorway.
"Yeah?"
JC turned toward the door as he wiped his eyes inconspicuously. He expected to
see a nurse so when he saw Jessica standing in the doorway he was startled,
"Jessica?"
"How
is he?" She didn’t move from where she stood.
"He’s
uh… he’s sleeping."
"Yeah."
Jessica nodded but remained standing just outside of Kyle’s room. "Have
you… did the doctor say anything?"
JC
shook his head and looked back at Kyle, "We’re still waiting for the
results of his spinal tap." He sighed and wiped Kyle’s brow with the
corner of his sheet. "You can come in you know."
She
took a tentative step into the room and rested her hand on the foot of Kyle’s
bed. "Here, you guys forgot Lello." She handed the floppy dog to JC
as he let out a shaky sigh.
"Thanks."
He nodded and pursed his lips. JC placed the dog by Kyle’s side then rested his
IV taped hand on Lello’s fur.
"How
are you?" Jessica asked as she shifted her weight from foot to
foot.
"I’m
okay." JC said with reservation. "I’d be better if I knew what was
wrong."
"Are
you hungry? Do you want me to go get you something?"
"No."
He shook his head but his stomach growled loudly in the background,
contradicting his voice. "You don’t have to."
"Mr.
Chasez?" Dr. Martinez tapped on the door, startling both Jessica and JC.
"Yeah?"
JC jumped up quickly as his heart sped up, half of him wanted to know what was
wrong and the other half wanted to block out the doctor’s voice completely.
"We
got the labs back on Kyle’s spinal." He looked at Jessica, "I’m
sorry, we haven’t been introduced. I’m Dr. Martinez." He shook her hand
and smiled, assuming she was the mother. He paused for a second and consulted
the chart in his hand, "Well, it is meningitis, which is what we
feared." JC’s heartbeat pounded in his ears and he strained to hear the
rest of what the doctor said. "The good thing is that it’s viral and we’ve
caught it real soon." Dr. Martinez nodded, consulting Kyle’s chart.
"His white blood cell count was 500 which is a little elevated but not
enough to really worry. His open pressure was 19, which is on the higher end of
normal but still in a safe range. We’re going to go ahead and take him off the
antibiotics; they won’t help a viral infection. The protein count was only
slightly elevated, glucose was low and the gram stain was negative." He
read off the lab report using terms and measurements that JC couldn’t
understand.
JC
took a deep and staggered breath as he tried to calm himself down. He’d been so
nervous, playing the worst possible scenario over and over in his mind, this
was unexpected. "So… so what happens now?" He held his hands in his
lap to keep them from shaking and wanted nothing more than to have all of the
guys there to pound him on the back and tell him they knew Kyle would be
okay.
"Well,
with viral meningitis there’s not much we can do to treat it. What I’ll
do is keep an eye on him and try to get his fever down. Once it’s below 103 you
can take him home and just try to keep him comfortable."
"What
about his IV?"
"We’re
going to leave that where it is to keep his fluids up and to leave the line
open in case we need access."
"Okay."
JC nodded and his mind drew a complete blank. He knew he had a dozen questions
to ask but at that moment all he wanted to do was pick up Kyle and leave.
"How
contagious is this?" Jessica asked softly when JC didn’t say anything.
"Depending
on the type of virus, it varies. If there are other children around I’d keep an
eye on them for similar symptoms." Dr. Martinez explained.
"He’s
not around any other kids, but what about adults?"
"Most
adults have been exposed to these viruses at some point in their life, but less
than one in every one thousand actually contract viral meningitis. As adults
your immune system is built up enough to ward off many of these viruses.
Chances are, unless you have a compromised immune system, you should be
fine."
"How
soon would symptoms show up though?" Jessica asked as she thought about
the seventy-member crew and the other guys who were in close contact with Kyle
every day.
"If
they ‘catch’ this meningitis, symptoms will surface within five to seven days
after contact."
"Do
we need to do anything? Get a shot or something?"
"No,
no nothing like that. Since he’s mainly around adults, I’d say if they haven’t
shown symptoms by now they probably won’t." Dr. Martinez nodded, "But
just make sure to wash his hands, and yours, after you change him or blow his
nose."
"So
just like if he had a cold?" She didn’t think it could be that easy.
"Yes,
exactly. This is a virus so you’re going to prevent it like a cold. Wash your
hands a lot and don’t touch your mouth or eyes often."
"What
about flying? We might have to fly to some of our next locations, can he do
that?"
"Sure,
that’s fine. You might want to wait until the fever breaks, but that’s just a
comfort suggestion. Medically and physically he can fly anytime, you all might
just be more comfortable if you wait until his fever is gone or at least
reduced."
"How
long should that take?" JC was glad that Jessica was there to ask all of
the questions he had forgotten.
"Four
or five days usually… as long as a week." Dr. Martinez shrugged.
"Is
there anything we can do to help reduce his fever?" Jessica looked over at
Kyle as he slept.
"Sure,
Baby Tylenol is actually the best thing I can suggest. It’ll help with his head
ache and stiff neck as well."
"What
else can we do?"
"Keep
up his fluids, lots of rest… basically take it easy for a couple days. Treat
this like a flu or any other kind of bug, that’s just about how he’ll feel
anyway."
"And
what should we be looking for?"
"If
his fever jumps again, or if his symptoms get worse. If he starts vomiting
bring him in immediately, or to the nearest hospital." Dr. Martinez tapped
his clipboard.
"When
can we go home?" JC asked, opening his mouth for the first time.
"Tomorrow.
With the lumbar puncture, he’ll need to lay flat for 6-8 hours and we’d like to
observe him after that to make sure he remains stable."
"Okay,
yeah I want him to stay." JC nodded. "Can I stay with him?"
"Here?
Absolutely." Dr. Martinez nodded. "We’ll have a cot brought in here
for you. Will both of you be staying?" He looked from JC to Jessica.
Jessica
shook her head and cleared her throat, "No I uh, I won’t be staying."
"Okay."
Dr. Martinez said as he placed Kyle’s chart back on the foot of his bed,
"Do you have any more questions?"
"No."
Jessica shook her head.
"What
are the side effects? I mean, I know this can be uh…fatal, but… but you made it
sound like he’ll be fine." JC looked up at the doctor.
"I
think we caught it early enough." Dr. Martinez nodded. "The damage
comes when it goes undetected for any length of time, or if the patient has
seizures or black outs. Dr. Herzog, the neurologist be down later to look him
over, but I really think he’ll be fine."
"Thank
you." JC nodded.
"If
you have any more questions buzz a nurse and if they can’t help you have me
paged."
"Okay,
thanks."
"I’ll
swing back around a little later to check up on everyone, okay?"
"Yeah."
JC took a deep breath and looked back at Kyle as the doctor smiled and let the
door shut behind him.
"Wow."
Jessica whispered softly. The tension in the room seemed to leave with the
doctor and without warning they could both breathe easier.
"Whoa…
shit." JC took a deep breath and let it out loudly as he ran his hands
through his hair. "Wow, I just… I can’t believe he’s okay." JC’s
chest tightened as he shook his head and swallowed hard. "How do people do
this? I mean… parents get bad news about their kids every day, right now
there’s a parent somewhere being told that their kid is gonna…" JC shook
his head trying to chase the thought from his mind, "How do they do this?
I swear I don’t know what I’d be doing if this were bad. How did I get so
lucky, man?"
"Parents
are built strong."
"Not
me, I’m barely hanging on here." JC sat back in his chair and leaned on Kyle’s
bed. "I seriously have never in my whole life felt like this. Nothing can
ever compare, it makes me want to call my parents and just… I don’t know. Just
call them."
"You
should." Jessica nodded.
"I
will." He mumbled.
"How’d
they take the news?"
"About
Kyle?"
"About
all of this."
"My
mom was pissed at first I guess." He shrugged and sighed. "They don’t
know he’s sick though."
"JC…"
She sighed, prepared to give him another lecture, but she stopped. "Do you
want me to have someone call them?"
"No,
I will." He ran his fingers through his hair; "I just wanted to wait
until I knew."
"What
about the guys?"
"Yeah…
I should call them." JC reached for the phone by the bed again. He
followed the directions again and waited as Chris’ cell phone rang in his ear.
"Do
you want me to go?" Jessica whispered and pointed toward the door.
JC
frowned and shook his head then sighed, "Hey Chris."
"Hey,
what’s up?" Chris asked.
"Um…
well Kyle’s got meningitis." JC’s stomach still sunk at the word.
"But it’s uh, it’s viral so it’s not that bad."
"What
are they going to do?" Chris asked softly, trying not to let his own voice
shake.
"Nothing
really, they just – "
"Nothing?
How can they do nothing man? Can you get a second opinion?" Chris
interrupted with rapid-fire questions.
"No
there’s nothing they do to treat viral meningitis, they just give him meds to
reduce his fever and he said that Kyle would be good as new in a week or
so."
"Serious?
I thought meningitis was bad?"
"It
can be." JC nodded and caught Jessica’s eye, "I guess we’re just
lucky."
"Yeah,
I’d say so." Chris smiled, "So that’s cool, when are you guys coming
back?"
"Not
till tomorrow." JC shook his head. "After the spinal tap they want
him to lay flat and still for a couple hours so he’s gonna stay over night."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah,
I’m gonna hang out here with him and things. If Sean’s around can you let him
know?"
"Yeah,
I’ll tell him."
"And
um, Jessica is here too, so uh… you know… let him know that too so he doesn’t
freak."
"Oh."
Chris paused, "I didn’t know she was there."
"She
stopped by to bring Kyle his dog."
"Lello?"
Chris smiled and shook his head.
"Yeah."
JC laughed lightly.
"Cool."
"Yeah,
so uh, let the other guys know what’s going on and everything."
"I
will man, you just take care of Kyle, okay? He’s the tour kid and everyone here
is really worried about him."
"Thanks."
JC nodded.
"We
love you man, give Kyle a big hug from all his uncles."
"I
will." JC nodded and lowered his voice; "I love you guys too."
"Talk
to you later."
"Bye."
JC hung up the phone and then immediately dialed his parent’s home on the east
coast. They weren’t there so he left them a quick message, "Hey guys, it’s
me. Um, I just wanted to let you know that I’m at the hospital right now.
Children’s Hospital in Pittsburgh. Kyle’s pretty sick; he’s got viral
meningitis so they’re going to keep him here over night. It’s uh… the doctor
said that there’s really nothing to worry about, he’s on fluids and baby
aspirin to get his fever down and stuff but uh…" He paused and took a deep
breath, "Anyway, I just wanted to let you know. We’re in room 579 if you
wanna call or whatever. He should be out of here tomorrow so I’ll call you guys
then." He glanced at Jessica quickly then leaned forward onto the bed to
place his hand on Kyle’s thigh, "I love you guys, and uh… thanks for
everything… just um, everything." JC said softly as he traced his finger
over Kyle’s small hand and hung up the phone.
Jessica
pulled a chair over next to JC; the only place there was room in his tiny private
room, "Are you okay?" She asked as she leaned on the bed by Kyle’s
ankle. Watching JC torture himself like this was almost too hard to watch, but
she was glad that this affected him in such a major way. If she ever had any
doubts about his devotion to Kyle they were all swept away as she saw a tear
fall down the side of his cheek.
JC
looked away and swiped at the stray tear. He nodded, and then rested his chin
in his hand as he leaned his elbow on the bed. "I’m okay." He mumbled
as his stomach growled again.
"I’m
going to go to the cafeteria to get a drink, what do you want to eat?" She
gently placed her hand on JC’s shoulder.
"Nothing."
"You’re
starving, let me bring you something."
"I’m
fine, I don’t want anything."
"Too
bad." Jessica patted his shoulder and stood up. She left quietly and found
her way to the cafeteria on the bottom floor of the hospital. She got herself a
soda, then picked up a cold sandwich and a drink for JC.
"Here."
She set the food on the bed by JC’s arm and opened his soda. "You need to
eat something."
"Does
being around kids put you in the mom mode or what?" JC asked with a small
smile. His eyes looked tired and his mouth watered as he unwrapped the
sandwich.
Jessica
shrugged and rested her chin in her hands; "I guess when I’m needed,
yeah." She looked down at Kyle as he slept, then quickly glanced at JC.
"Hey I’m uh… I’m really sorry I flew off the handle at you the other
day." She dropped her eyes and ran her finger over the edge of the sheet
in front of her.
JC
swallowed his first bite of the sandwich and wiped his mouth on his sleeve,
"I deserved it." He nodded.
"No
you didn’t. Not the way I approached it. You might have needed to hear it but
not in the way I presented it." She shook her head. "I just… he’s
such a great kid and I’ve really gotten attached to him and everything. From my
isolated view it just looked like you were shlufing him off on everyone
else."
"I
was tr – "
"No
I know…" She shook her head. "That’s why I’m apologizing. I know this
has to be nuts for you. You’re doing okay."
JC
was quiet for a minute as he ate his sandwich and took several sips from his
soda. "I was in denial I think. Or something. Not denial, I mean, I know
he’s mine." He wiped his mouth again and cleared his throat, "I don’t
know, I just didn’t want to face it. But Jesus, when I lost him in Seattle? I
swear I thought I was going to hyperventilate or pass out or something. I
couldn’t breathe practically. It was like everything from the last
couple weeks just… just came down, you know? All of this… this caring
just came out of hiding and I was scared shitless."
"That
was scary."
"More
than just scary. I’ve never felt like that before. I can’t lose him Jess… not
now. I just got him; he’s the most important thing in my life. He just makes
everything else seem so insignificant."
Jessica
nodded and looked at the sleeping child, "That’s good." She
whispered.
"I
had no idea that it would feel like this, you know? I mean, I’ve thought about
having kids in the future or whatever, but I just never thought it was like
this."
"How?"
"Like
I’d do anything to trade places with him just so he wouldn’t have to do this.
All the needles and doctors and… and everything. I’d do all of that if it meant
he didn’t have to. No one ever mentioned how being a parent could make you feel
so helpless. There’s nothing I can do right now except wait this out and it
sucks."
"I
know it does."
"I
feel like I’m not doing anything."
"You’re
being here and he needs that."
"He
needs to be better. He needs the fever to go away and he… he just needs to be
better."
"Just
think how thrilled he’s going to be to see you when he wakes up." She
rested her chin in her hand as she watched Kyle roll onto his side, frown in
his sleep then roll back. JC didn’t say anything; he just looked over his
opposite shoulder and out the window. "Do you want me to go?" Jessica
asked as JC sniffed quietly. He laid his head down on the bed and looked up at
Kyle, then shook his head as he squeezed his eyes shut tight. Tears rose in
Jessica’s eyes as she watched JC’s shoulders shake with silent sobs.
Her
chair didn’t make a sound as she slid it closer to where he sat. She
tentatively reached out and placed her hand flat on his back, just to let him
know she was there. Her heart broke as she watched him sit there and cry
softly. This man that had always been in control of everything, always on the
ball and number one in all he attempted… was falling apart slowly at the hands
of a toddler. She felt more than heard him exhale his deep breath as she
leaned forward to place her other hand on his arm that was lying on the bed
with his hand covering Kyle’s.
Jessica
kept her eyes on Kyle as she softly pressed her lips to JC’s shoulder and
whispered, "He’s going to be okay Jace… don’t worry."
"I
can’t not worry." JC whispered back with emotion, "Not until he’s out
of here." He felt her hand slide from his back up to his opposite shoulder
in a sort of half hug. "Thanks for coming here Jess."
"You’re
welcome." She nodded and rested her chin on his shoulder.
"He
loves you a lot, you know." JC forced a small smile and wiped at his eyes
with his free hand. "He thinks you’re cool."
"He
loves you too Jace." Jessica said softly. "You’re all he talks about
when I watch him. Daddy this and daddy that, all over the place."
"Yeah?"
JC turned to look at her over his shoulder and was startled by how close she
was.
"Yeah."
She moved back a bit to make the gap between them a little bigger. "You’re
the coolest person in the world to him."
"I’m
the big man huh?" JC blushed quickly as he turned back to face Kyle,
trying to push the rush of feelings away.
"You’re
the man." She nodded and removed her hand from his shoulder.
"Why
didn’t you go with the crew?" JC asked a minute later.
"Because
Kyle’s sick." She gave him a look, as if he were crazy for asking.
"Well
yeah but…"
"I
love him JC. I’m just as worried as you are right now, and just as hopeful that
we… that he can leave tomorrow."
"Does
Sean know you’re here?"
"Yes."
"Is
he pissed?"
"No."
She shook her head. "He’s not mad about anything. In fact I think the only
reason he would be upset was if we weren’t here. If right now we were in
Cleveland at the venue thinking Kyle just had a bug. You’re lucky that you
caught this so soon."
"Yeah."
JC nodded.
"Kyle’s
lucky." She added. JC just shrugged and looked at Kyle’s sleeping face.
"I
don’t know about that. The poor kid got dumped in a hotel lobby to be left with
a really crappy father." JC tried to keep it light but the guilt from the
previous weeks fell down on him.
"You’re
doing fine JC. You’ve gotten so much better, Kyle’s very lucky to have
you."
"He’s
lucky to have you." JC turned to look at her again, "We all
are."
She
held his gaze for a second trying to figure out what the look in his eyes
meant, "Thank you." She tore her eyes away and cleared her throat.
"I’m uh… I’m going to go back to the hotel. Call in the morning okay? Let
me know how things are?" She scooted her chair back towards the wall and
stood up.
"You
don’t have to go."
"No,
I… I’ve got to go." She nodded. "I’ll let the other crew guys know
what’s going on and everything. I’m sure they’re all real worried too."
"Okay."
JC nodded reluctantly. He didn’t want her to go now; just having someone else
there made his worries lift.
"If
you need anything tonight let me know, someone can be here in just a couple
minutes." She reached under the bed for her purse as he nodded. "And
if anything changes call."
"I
will." He stood up beside her and touched her elbow, "Thanks again
Jessica." He wrapped his arms around her in a heartfelt hug.
Jessica
hesitantly placed her arms around his waist and hugged him back,
"Anytime." She said as her cheek rested against his chest.
As
he released her he let his lips graze her cheek, just missing the corner of her
mouth. He could have stepped back to let her leave and she would have, but
instead he purposely licked his lips and kissed her.
She
didn’t move for a second and she wondered if it was really happening; then just
as soon as it started, the kiss ended and Jessica stood there breathless.
"I’m
– " JC began to apologize after he licked his bottom lip.
"I’ve
gotta go." She cut him off and turned away quickly before he could see the
pinkness rising in her cheeks and the look of surprise on her face. She fumbled
with her purse as she pushed the thin drape aside and left JC alone in the room
with his son.
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