The sterile scent of the hospital is
one thing no one ever forgets. The
rattle of carts filled with food trays, the squeaking of sneakers on the shiny
linoleum floor, the ringing of phones and beeping of monitors, the urgent calls
over the intercom and crying children.
Those are all sounds associated with hospitals, and this time was no
different.
From where he stood he could feel
his life changing with every sideways glance from every nurse that passed, to
the visitors coming bearing flowers and balloons. The call came early that morning and woke him
out of a much needed deep sleep. He'd
only been asleep for three hours when the melodic ring of his cell phone rose
him, but the voice on the other end brought him to completely awake with two
little words. How he got to the
hospital, he'd never know. He could
remember grabbing his jacket and sliding his shoes on, but the next thing he
knew he was at the hospital entrance staring at the automatic doors as they
opened and closed in response to his weight on the sensors.
"In or out
kid." A nurse finally said
as it opened for the tenth time.
"Sorry." He mumbled and stepped off the black
mat. In or out. She made the decision seem so simple. In or out. Yes or no.
Black or white.
When it came down to it, he supposed, it really was that simple. But knowing that and taking the next step to
supply the answer were two different things.
He knew that he couldn’t wait
forever. That in a few hours they'd send
out a search party to find him. He
didn't have long at all, but there was always time for a cigarette. Smoking was a relatively new thing for him,
and in all honesty, he only smoked a few times a month when he felt like
nothing else could possibly go wrong so who cared if he got lung cancer or
not? As he tended to be over dramatic,
that actually happened more than he'd admit to anyone else. But he knew that this was one of those
times. He was at the hospital and inside
were the characters that would shape the rest of his
life, and there was nothing he could do to change it. Everything had already happened,
it was just waiting for him to get there.
The lighter flicked a bright orange
flame as he inhaled and tried not to cough the smoke away. He got three drags into it before his stomach
turned. No matter how bad he felt, he
knew he could never really be a smoker.
He dropped the glowing cigarette into the concrete ashtray and licked
his dry lips. The automatic doors opened
again as he stepped on the mat to lean against the wall.
As they opened the nurse looked up
again and frowned.
"Sorry." He mumbled
before stepping through the doors and into the fluorescent waiting room. The only reason he was inside was to keep the
nurse from flogging him, but now that he was there he didn't know what to
do. As more people came in through the
door he pushed himself against the wall to give them plenty of room. His shoulder bumped a raised floor plan and
he turned to study it. Staring at the
map gave him the appearance of purpose.
He studied it, located the restrooms, followed the red line to the
cafeteria, hunted down the illusive pharmacy… then located the department he
was summoned to. Third
floor. He pursed his lips and
looked over his shoulder at the elevators behind him with a look of confusion.
How could something so common,
something he'd seen probably every day of his life and ridden on millions of
times, seem so daunting. Like a fiery chariot coming to carry him to
his fate.
As soon as the Hades reference
entered his mind he shook it clear and blushed.
He couldn't think negatively; positivity would
be the only thing that carried him through the next few hours. If he could just get to the
third floor to face it.
He sighed and turned back to the
map, "Where's the emergency exit?"
He muttered softly under his breath.
Stalling was something he excelled at.
But eventually he'd have to face his future… and the third floor.
Copyright
© 2003, Amy Lynn