Lance held the phone to his ear and
tried to hear through the crackle of JC's cell phone. "Where are you?" He raised his voice with the hope that that
might help.
"What?" JC's voice was clear for the first time.
"Where are you?" Lance repeated.
"Ho -"
"Are you at home?"
"I - Ah - Ouse -" JC's voice cut
out with every word.
"I'm going to call you at
home. If you can hear me Jace, I'm going
to call you at home." Lance
practically shouted before he hung up and rested his head in his hands. The hotel room was dark, but then everything
around him lately seemed to be dark. The
sky was forever a steel grey; threatening snow and sleet and only just now
starting to produce both which kept
him locked inside. He carefully picked
up the
He gave it a tiny shake to set the
shells in motion again, then picked up the hotel phone and began the process of
dialing internationally on his calling card.
Three minutes later he heard the distant and tiny sound of the phone
ringing six thousand miles away.
"Is that you?" JC answered the phone with a laugh.
"It's me." Lance smiled back.
"My cell phone sucks."
"Especially
from half a world away."
Lance set the snow globe down and watched the seashells fall.
"Yeah, no
kidding. You sound like you're
talking into a tin can."
"I know."
"Oh well, at least I can hear
you now." JC ran his hand through
his hair and leaned forward on the little tile island in his huge kitchen. "So anyway."
"Anyway."
"What are you up to?"
"Not much actually. I… the training has
been suspended for the time being and it's snowing like crazy outside."
"So you're stuck in your
hotel?"
"Well yes and no. I'm allowed to go out or whatever, I
just…"
"You don't want to." JC finished his sentence for him.
"It's snowing." Lance said
again. "Like
crazy."
"And you don't do snow."
"I didn't think this through
very well." Lance shook his head
and pulled the curtains over his window so he wouldn't have to watch his dreams
falling away.
"Sure you did."
"Jace…" Lance sighed and collapsed into the huge leather
chair in the corner under the standing lamp.
"Part of me just wants to come home." Lance said softly after a moment's
pause. He'd been thinking that for a
while but had never said the words out loud until just then. When JC didn't respond, Lance thought for a
second that they'd been disconnected; which was fine with Lance. The next words would be easier to say if he
thought no one was there. "This
whole thing is harder than I thought. And a bigger hassle with the money. They actually gave me a ticket to go home. It's for tomorrow, but…"
"Don't use it." JC said
quickly, surprising Lance though he didn't really believe they'd been
disconnected.
"I'm not." Lance covered his eyes with his hands. "But part of me wants to."
"If you get all the way back
here you'll never go back."
"So?"
"I'm not even going to dignify
that with a response."
"I've gotta get out of here
Jace. Just until things settle down and
they let me back into the program."
"Then go somewhere else. Meet up with J in
"He's not in
"Really?"
JC asked, genuinely surprised.
"Yep. He called from his mom's house a few nights
ago."
"Hmm."
"Hmm." Lance mimicked JC and secretly wished he could
say the rest of what was on his mind.
"Well I…" JC started, then
stopped and breathed softly into the phone.
"I don't uh… I'm not really working on anything right now. Maybe I could… I mean, if you want, I could
come out."
"To
"I mean, if you've got things - "
"JC you don't want to come to
JC licked his lips and tried to
force, "Yeah I do" from his
lips, but the truth was, he didn't. He liked warm
weather and beaches. Snow and ice were not his thing, he and Lance were alike in many
ways. "Okay but maybe we could meet
in
"
"That's about halfway between
us, right?"
"I… I guess so."
"Or
"
"We've never been to
"Yeah we have." Lance smiled. "Years ago."
"Well I don't remember so it
doesn't count." JC laughed
lightly. "Let's meet up in
"You need a break from doing
nothing?"
"I need a break period." JC nodded.
"So will you do that? Instead
of coming home will you just take a little break and meet me in
"I… I don’t know Jace."
"I can be there this
weekend."
"I don't know if - "
"Yeah you do. You don't have training and you can hop a
flight or a train and get there by this weekend."
"Yeah but hotels and - "
"I'll do that." JC
actually sounded excited. "I'll
take care of all that."
"You'll call Natalie and have her do it."
"Same
thing." JC shook his
head. "I'll do that tonight and
call you tomorrow. Start packing."
"Seriously. You don't have to go to
"Yeah well…
when you're done with training you can come home. But that may be a while, so in the meantime
I'll see you this weekend."
"Are you gonna see if the other
guys want to come?"
"Joey's doing Rent still."
"Justin and
Chris?"
JC paused and thought for a
second. "Nope. This is just for you and me. I think… I think that'll be good. We need it." His voice dipped lower at the end and Lance's
heart skipped a beat. "It's been a uh, a while since we got to take a vacation
together."
"The Cayman's last year."
"Yeah." JC smiled and closed his eyes, feeling the
cool ocean breeze against his skin at the memory. "So yeah. Get packed.
I'll call with the details."
"Thanks Jace. Really. I mean, thanks for everything."
"Any time man, you know
that."
"I know."
"Okay then."
"I'll see you this
weekend." Lance nodded, not quite
believing that in four days he'd actually get to see JC.
"Yep. Love ya."
"I uhh…"
Lance paused as he heard JC inhale sharply. "L-love ya too."
"Bye."
JC said quickly as he hung up the phone leaving Lance staring at the
phone in his hand, wondering what exactly had just happened.
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